passing of time

seriously - where does the time go?! people, do you realize it's the 2ND week in AUGUST? I swear i just pulled out my summer clothes. i haven't even washed all my sweaters from last winter yet! i've used my window a/c unit less than a half dozen times. i've been picking ripe tomatoes off the vines for the past 3 weeks, for the love!

i'm not specifically lamenting the quick passing of summer, but time in general. sure, i haven't had my fill of the beach, softball, digging around in the dirt, etc. as much as i enjoy the cold & snow of winter, i'm not ready for it yet!

but more than that, it's a fresh reminder not to play the "i can do this later" game. i'm sorry to break it to you, but "later" actually came & went - twice, i think!!

i've had the blank paperwork for a will, living will, and power of attorney for months... and i had been meaning to get my hands on those documents for about a year previous to that actually happening. i think, "i really need to get back into the scriptures regularly", and make a goal for myself that i'm going to start at the very beginning of next week. or tomorrow. or this evening. and the next thing i know, weeks have gone by and there's a layer of dust on my bible that i guiltily brush off, then lay the bible on my bed to read later. (i drive myself crazy sometimes.. when will i ever learn!)

i often wonder if part of this retrospection is due to being in a place in life that i didn't ever imagine for myself. i didn't picture myself at 29: single, working nights (50-60 hours per week), in a messy house (pesky housework!), lounging around in my pajamas at 11:25am in my pj's on a monday (my day off), living an independent life that comes with occasional disappointments i'd have never thought i'd live. don't get me wrong - i love so many aspects of the place i'm in in my life - and i know with my whole heart that it's not my plans that i'm living, but ultimately God's.

but i do look back and wonder, how did i get here? and how did that happen so quickly?!